Thunder in My Bones:

Rising with the Sacred Power of the Wild Bison —Into Courage and Healing

In the Tension of the In-Between

There are times when something stirs so deeply within me, I can feel it building like pressure just beneath the surface. It’s not just a passing mood or fleeting inspiration—it’s energy. Pure, raw, restless energy.

Sometimes it feels like I’m standing in the space between lightning and thunder. The storm hasn’t broken yet, but it’s coming. I feel it in my body, in my breath, in the electricity of my emotions. I feel it in the quiet call to act—but with no clear direction yet on how.

In these moments, I sit in the tension of the in-between: the longing to do something meaningful with this energy… and the uncertainty of how to move in a way that is true, ethical, and aligned with my soul.

Something I’ve come to deeply know and value is that—everything we put into the world matters. Every word, every action, every post—it all holds energy. And I am deeply committed to living a life that is intentional. Conscious. Heart-led. Soul-aligned.

As someone whose passions and creativity are among the most sacred parts of my existence, I feel a responsibility—an ethical one, even—to ensure that what I share isn’t just reactionary. That it doesn’t come from a place of harm, revenge, or ego. I want to share in a way that brings healing, not harm. Truth, not distortion. And most importantly—empowerment.

Recently, I was emotionally activated by someone from my past who caused me deep pain.

The feelings that arose were visceral and strong. Sitting in stillness felt like spiritual bypassing. But acting from anger or grief didn’t feel right either. I needed something more—guidance, perspective, clarity.

So, (of course) I turned to my tarot deck.

The Messages From Spirit

Tarot is my direct line to spirit, to my deepest knowing.

It’s the mirror that reflects both my shadow and my light. Sometimes I pull out my oracle decks too, because when I’m swirling in my own bias and emotion, those gentle written messages help me soften and gain clarity from a different angle.

This time, the message came through loud and clear.

From the Mystical Shaman Oracle, I pulled Thunder—card 56.

A snippet from the guidebook reads:

“…feels like a herd of wild bison on the run. You feel it right through your bones.”

Yes.

That was it.

That’s exactly what I felt.

This energy rising inside of me—raw, primal, unstoppable. A stampede of soul-force needing to move. Needing to do something.

I asked for further guidance and a supportive friend from my classical Smith-Rider-Waite Tarot deck to deepen the guidance around this message and was pleasantly greeted with The Star.

This card always reminds me of healing—not just personal, but also collective. It’s a return to truth and wholeness, especially after destabilizing and challenging times. When I saw it come up beside Thunder, I understood. This call to take action wasn’t coming from a place of pain—it was coming from a place of deep healing.

The Star reminded me that even when I feel unsure or afraid to be seen, my presence, my truth, my voice—can be a light for others too.

The last card in this 8-card spread was The Sun —a symbol of truth, “being seen”, exposure (whether comfortable or not), vitality, and illumination.

The Naked Truth

The message was crystalline: this wasn’t about retaliation. It wasn’t about reliving pain or calling out harm. It was about choosing to show up in my light. In my truth. With the power of a thousand bison behind me—not to trample, but to transform.

Putting myself out there has never felt easy. I often wrestle with the fear of being misunderstood, criticized, or energetically attacked.

Vulnerability is sacred, but it can feel like walking into the world naked, unsure of how you’ll be received. And in a culture where the online space can be so hostile, it takes real courage to be tender and visible.

I’ve come to understand something else, too: my presence is a vibration. My being carries medicine. And when I stand in my authenticity—with integrity, compassion, and discernment—that energy ripples outward in ways I may never see, but believe in and deeply trust.

So here I am, once again, choosing to share with the hope that my vibration isn’t coming from ego or from woundedness. But from healing. From the knowing that sometimes, the most revolutionary thing we can do is speak our truth with clarity and love—even when our voice shakes. Even when the world feels harsh.

The Sacred Medicine of Presence

I’ll continue to carry the imagery of the wild bison running strong and free close to me. I’ll let their strength thunder through my bones as a reminder that I am here to move energy. To create. To uplift. To make sacred noise in a world that often asks us to be quiet.

When we honour what’s rising inside us and choose to share it with intention, we become agents of healing—not just for ourselves, but for others, too.

So if you’re standing in the in-between—if you’re feeling the rumble of your own thunder—trust that you don’t need to rush. But also trust that your voice, your art, your presence matters. It’s part of the healing.

Keep listening.

Keep creating.

Keep choosing light.

We need your magic.

Mesmerized by the Bison

Me in Mexico May 2025 — TRS Coral: Grand Palladium Costa Mujeres Resort & Spa— “Xtra Time Sports Bar

(**this Bison is not real**)

Love and Light,

Natasha